Sun, Jul. 9th, 2006, 05:55 pm
im in cape cod, and i feel like a little so cal girl lost on the east coast! i want some people to hang out with.....
Wed, Jun. 28th, 2006, 11:38 pm
theres something lonely about driving home from work all by yourself. maybe its just me, and i really shouldnt feel lonely. but i kind of do. its like, i dont have anything to do or any place to go or anyone to see, just going home.
it makes me happy im going to see jackie tommorow, shes such a sweetheart she makes me happy. except sometimes i get sad becuase i dont feel like i can ever be as good as her. i mean in my eyes shes one of the most perfect girls ive met, shes sweet, gorgeous, smart, and nice.... hah it sounds like i have a crush on her! nooo i dont i just really admire her. so im glad were going to hang out tommorow.
there ewre creepy people that came into work today. one man like was touching me and i told the manager, im not su re if i should do that but it was grossing me out so much... and then after that i seemed to notice everything a little bit mroe, like when someone would brush up against my arm or touch my arm.
also on the radio on the way home, i was listening to love line. and this girl called in saying she wanted to kill herself. i almost started crying, thank god the drive home is a short one or i would have. i j ust know exactly where she is right now. so scared and so alone. she j ust needs someone to talk to. i wanted to call in and just tell her that it will be ok. that its going to take work, but you can do it, everybody can. i just wish that i could give myself my own advice sometimes :-)
well its time for bed. i hope that tommorow is even better than today, and i can become stronger and stronger. staying away from boys is my new goal, and so far its really not working all that well but hey im getting better.. baby steps right???
ok so today, i was an idiot. at practice this mornning, we have these suction cup lights that go on the ends of the boats when its dark in the morning, and after practice i decided it was a brilliant idea to put it on my forehead. well it got stuck, and instead of peeling it off nicly, i pulled it off, leaving a HUGE PURPLE BRUSE THAT LOOKS LIKE A HICKY on my forehead. im sitting here looking in the mirror right now and trust me its not getting much better. i look freaking retarded. and to go along with it im an idiot. and i have a headache.
and then i went and got a temporary school card today, when i thought i couldnt find mine. and then BAM it was in my pocket the whole time.
yay more brilliance.
today is not my day lol.
Fri, Jan. 6th, 2006, 05:36 pm
oh and it was 86 degrees today. in southern california. in january.
Fri, Jan. 6th, 2006, 05:29 pm
im at school. crew. crew. and more crew. its amazing how tired i get running around day after day to and from the boathouse.
its all going really well though, im having lots of funn!! i mean its difficult and im working my ass off, but thats what makes me better right? alright. gonna go sleep or nap or go out or something. haha
Mon, Jan. 2nd, 2006, 02:06 pm
i cant believe im going back to school today. it seems like just yesterday i drove down here. wow. is all i can say. lol.
i dont know if im ready for another semester. i mean i think i am, but god its going to be difficult. its always an uphill battle for me. and im too stubborn to settle for anything but perfection. well, i survived one college semester lets see if i can survive another one.
the only thing that really gets to me is that i wont be able to come home for a longgg time. i love my home. no, i love what is at my home. i love my family to death. my parents are awesome and my sister and brother are great too. i feel like im missing out on my family when im away at school. i want to see my sister go to her prom, and my brother grow up. but i wont be able to. it makes me sad. but at the same time, i know im doign whats best for me. i just gotta show my parents how well i can do. :-)
oh san diego. finest city in the world. you truly are. i will miss you.
i guess its time for an update? haha
schools good. lifes good.
although if i see one more happy couple im going to beat someone up. i will. watch me. ive got some muscle i swear :-)
this holiday spirit crap, im really over it. nobody seems to be really nice or anything and i feel like my efforts to help people are rather futile. oh well. one day... karma they say.
Mon, Aug. 8th, 2005, 12:10 am
updating just for the lovely laina.
im so stoked for college
16 days bitches!
omg im scared and excited at the same time. but righ tnow im mostly excited. im kind of nervous, doing the nessa stress out. you know how i do. kind of getting nervous about silly little things. tommorow i will clean up my room a bit and then turn in some more paperwork i need done.
but to tell you the truth, what im really nervous about, is not being able to keep up with everyone in college. i mean wow, nobody thought i was gonna get into college, let alone get into lmu, and now im going thre. its amazing for me. im so proud of myself. im also really nervous. can i keep up with the work? how much extra will it be for me? sometimes i get so frustrated with schoolworkkk.. blah. we'll see
Thu, Jun. 9th, 2005, 11:04 am
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NINA!
SWEET 16!! hehe
and i love you
Mon, Jun. 6th, 2005, 10:32 am